I’ve been thinking. Two things.
- I mix up my writing a lot. Talk about what the church thinks, believes and so on and talk about what I think, believe and so on. Should make it clear that ‘the church’ is me.
Only me. We are one and the same. I created it and ‘belong’ to it simply as a result of thinking about the god thing. I think I made that pretty clear in the first few posts when I was talking about very beginner things. Following my own train of thought.
And in the finish I got a point where I was pretty clear to myself at least as to what I believed about ‘god’ and therefore about ‘church’ being as they are pretty much the same thing, aren’t they?
So that’s that. That’s how come there’s a church: thefairdinkchurch and how come I belong to it and how come there’s only me belongs to it.
2. It’s a downer.
Well not really a downer. In fact very much not. But compared to the exuberance and outgoing bright enthusiasm of your typical convert or fervent disciple of the ‘normal’ christian churches one feels quite flat, quite ‘down’. This one anyway. Me.
Because it is quite a sobering thing, really, to perceive the truth I/we perceive. The ‘we’ there refers to the NDE people who report god is this radiant love energy thing. They share my belief or perhaps it’s better to say I share theirs. Either way it is shared. There is a ‘we’.
Well once it is accepted and known then far from being intoxicated all the time once has to face the fact that one is here on earth of our volition, our own desire and with a task to do which is quite simple and definite and at the same time immensely difficult and vague, indefinite.
For we are here, it seems, to improve our souls, our own being, by helping others.
So you know what you’ve got to do clearly enough. But how to do it? Not easy. Think about it.
And then you get introspective. Apparently, you hear from the NDE folks or from yourself if you are one, that you’ll get complete recall of everything you’ve ever done and all the bad little things you did to people, all your nastinesses and meannesses are going to come back to your mind and haunt you.
More than that – you’re going to experience them yourself, as done to you ! Just like it says somewhere in the bible I think – judge not that ye be not judged for with what judgement you judge ye shall be judged and that kind of stuff.
So that makes you think about what a stumbling fumbling mere mortal you’ve been.
And so on. The point I’m trying to make is that it’s real enough alright. Very real. And it makes living here into something more like a job with responsibility than we’ve been perhaps used to.
Can be quite sobering.